It starts as a lost thought, then it’s a whole moment of the day, and in the end, it’s just everything. Dementia, a debilating disease that causes one to lose there short term memory and not to long after, the loss of simple and not so simple thoughts.
Mom turned 85 and she was in great spirts. Her birthday was special. We took her to dinner sat around the table and had a few drinks. But, there was something askew. Mom was’nt as sharp with her answers and she struggled to remember sstories and names of friends. We at the time, joked it up to the two glasses of wine she had.
Weeks went on and the simple things that were everyday turn complicated. Slowly mom was losing her presents in time. Sometimes she would struggle with what she had for lunch, to not remembering some small tasks she had done that day.
Needless to say, this part of her life is stressfull, to her and to others around her. So what is needed, is to be in that moment. Live for that exact moment and enjoy it. There will be times where she will remember everything, and those times, well their’s that blank stare and confusion.
The hardest thought I have to deal with is the day, is mom forgeting me. The day she looks and wonders who I am. All the history and the moments we as a family have lived through. Gone!
I will cry the day you forget me.
I Love You Mom,
Brian, Remember?